A time to go

I am so full of emotion:
Of gratefulness for my year here
Of thankfulness for the people who welcomed me
Of pride for the fact that I got where I am right now
Of passion for what I am doing
Of excitement for next year
Of satisfaction with how hard I worked this year
Of anxiety for the summer
Of discomfort about that anxiety
Of love for the amazing people I met here
Of comfort of I’m going home
Of sadness for leaving
Of heartbreaking for saying goodbye to my best friend here
Of anger at the world for taking people away from me.

I’m so full of all this, I can’t sleep tonight. I can’t imagine next year here with Steph. I’m just so sad about it. I’m happy for her. I’m just sad that even the best of things always bring trials.